When I wanted a tattoo I thought about it for years on end looking for that perfect design that would mean something important to me. And I found it just like that one day on google... a Phoenix (I wonder why that didn't strike me when I was reading those Harry Potters). The Phoenix was just right for me at 30, that perfect spot in time when you've been through a lot of ups and downs and know that life isn't really a bed of roses, there are no prince charmings and everyone has to work for a living (more like live for working actually!). The idea behind a bird that rises from it's ashes was symbolic that no matter what life throws at you, you can get right back up, possibly brighter than before. I liked it! And the tattoo was done. And in some twisted way it does help me deal with bigger issues in life.
But then there are these niggling little things that irk you every day, like traffic. There are small things that you want but can't get, like a wall full of books or money to go on a Europe trip or your own house (yes, yes I know there are people who don't have enough to eat and I donate for them). There are annoying people, missed deadlines, shoddy work and an always on feeling of slipping time. I never thought I was so sensitive to these things, I've always been labeled very laid back, but turns out I am, and surprisingly any small little thing can ruin my day and make me a VERY nasty person to deal with.
So why this story? All the background on what annoys me and what helps me deal with stuff? Well because one of the "small little things" happened today on my way to work and I was so pissed about it. But I have a 2 hour drive to work, that gives me loads of time to think. And while I was fuming away and in a rage fit to drive my car in to a tree, it just occurred to me.... what if i actually did that (no no I'm not suicidal) and then I'd be dead (hopefully not maimed for life). And then none of these little things would matter. All those days spent fuming away on nothing would be just that.. wasted! I won't be there and all my tantrums wouldn't have made a dent in the world, it would go on as it is, clicking away on it's not so perfect rhythm.
So I decided (a spur of the moment decision, subject to change at any time, like conditional offers) that no more wasting my precious mind space on trivial (or big) things.
Erm.. well at the end of it, my lesson for the day is: THE BACARDI SONG
Be, what you wanna be,
Taking things the way, they come,
Nothing is as nice as finding paradise and
Sitting in the summer sun.
Living live the easy way,
Got your way to let it run,
Nothing is as cool as drifting in the sun light,
Sitting in the summer sun.
But then there are these niggling little things that irk you every day, like traffic. There are small things that you want but can't get, like a wall full of books or money to go on a Europe trip or your own house (yes, yes I know there are people who don't have enough to eat and I donate for them). There are annoying people, missed deadlines, shoddy work and an always on feeling of slipping time. I never thought I was so sensitive to these things, I've always been labeled very laid back, but turns out I am, and surprisingly any small little thing can ruin my day and make me a VERY nasty person to deal with.
So why this story? All the background on what annoys me and what helps me deal with stuff? Well because one of the "small little things" happened today on my way to work and I was so pissed about it. But I have a 2 hour drive to work, that gives me loads of time to think. And while I was fuming away and in a rage fit to drive my car in to a tree, it just occurred to me.... what if i actually did that (no no I'm not suicidal) and then I'd be dead (hopefully not maimed for life). And then none of these little things would matter. All those days spent fuming away on nothing would be just that.. wasted! I won't be there and all my tantrums wouldn't have made a dent in the world, it would go on as it is, clicking away on it's not so perfect rhythm.
So I decided (a spur of the moment decision, subject to change at any time, like conditional offers) that no more wasting my precious mind space on trivial (or big) things.
Erm.. well at the end of it, my lesson for the day is: THE BACARDI SONG
Be, what you wanna be,
Taking things the way, they come,
Nothing is as nice as finding paradise and
Sitting in the summer sun.
Living live the easy way,
Got your way to let it run,
Nothing is as cool as drifting in the sun light,
Sitting in the summer sun.
